January 17 – words

There is one point in any given day that we will have a small conflict inside the house.  At times, voices get excited and angry words are said.  It’s in the heat of the moment.  When those angry words come from our daughter, I don’t take them to heart, though I do need to address them.  Some days I’m fairly good at this.  Some days I’m overly tired and irritated and I handle the entire argument badly.

Today was a good day.  In the end that adorable little girl said she was sorry and added “can’t you please forgive me?”  A good follow up to a question as important as that deserves only one answer.  “Of course I forgive you.”  A warm embrace, a kiss, and two big smiles.

Don’t you wish all arguments ended this way?


January 16 – wonderment

I took Ava to her first theatre class.  As we got out of the car, she stood there and looked up at the big theatre building.  The look on her face was priceless and beautiful.  Her big brown eyes with a look of wonderment.  Her face full of excitement and eagerness to get to class.  The big hope of one day being in a play.

Children are so much fun to watch.  If we can open ourselves up to all the possibilities that they see in the world, I think it would serve us well.

January 13 – time

It’s always a treat to find time to sit and talk about important matters without being interrupted.  We had that time last night and my outlook on the future is so much brighter.  What a mood lifter!

While going through some major changes, Joe thought it would be a good idea to write down the top 10 things we would like to see happen in 2012.  Stream of consciousness.  These excercises are difficult for me in the first few minutes because I’m a person who wants to answer *right*.  Once I see Joe begin to write, I leave the room for just a minute, grab a red pen, and then go full out.  I think we both ended up having more than 10 things.

The beautiful thing about it?  We still have similar goals in life.  We still desire to simplify, enjoy life more, strengthen our spiritual connection, and our family bond.  In our 5th year of marriage, I’d say that’s a very good thing to have, and to hold onto.

January 12 – creativity

Once again, Ava continues to brings laughter and joy to my life with her fresh new ideas.  She took toilet paper and arranged them into a square on the floor.  She had her sewing basket out.  She asked me to thread her needle.  When I asked what she was making she told me a blanket.  “It’s going to be the softest blanket ever!”

Children come up with the most creative ideas.  Sometimes they work.  Sometimes not.  It’s the excitement on their face that comes with the idea that makes me very happy.

January 11 – time

I think too often we lose the importance of time.  I’m not talking about time on the clock, running late, or set times for routines.  I’m talking about time spent with loved ones, face to face.

Today, our daughter was home sick.  I was busy in the kitchen making a healing broth and dehydrating foods.  She was busy with her dolls in pretend land.  I then realized that our day was getting away from us and, while we were in the same house, we hadn’t spent any time together.  That is not how I wanted the day to end.

Before dinner, we played a new board game, Race to the Roof.  It took us about 30 minutes to set it up and about an hour to finish the game.  It was the first game for her to roll the die.  Very exciting to her, so it was to me as well.  We laughed a lot.  Especially when she rolled a six and said “I don’t want that number, I’ll roll again”.  I told her it was cheating.  She said “I guess I’m cheating”.  🙂

A simple board game, mother & daughter.  Looking each other in the eyes.  This was the best part of my day.

January 10 – gifts from the heart

We received more bad news today.  A close family member is in the hospital and we are left to wonder how much time we will have to love him in this life.  Our hearts are broken and my sister is torn apart as she is closest to him.  They are in Ohio, and we are on the west coast.  This makes me feel worse.

Where can I find the beauty in this day?  It is only because I have a beautiful daughter with a wonderful man that it is possible.  He arrived after work with flowers.  One small vase for our daughter, and one for me.  The card reads:  You  have my love and support.  I love you madly.

January 09 – new beginnings

Some days, due to something unforseen, it’s hard to see the beauty.  The mind, being consumed by bad news, doesn’t see or hear anything else.  I struggle with what the loss of a job means.  How will I tell my husband?  How will I help our family financially?  What should I do now?

I believe something beautiful and wonderful will be created because of the loss.  So, while I may not know which way to go, which path to follow, there will be a better ending.  I will become a better person.  I will find my journey to be an adventure dotted with amazing and beautiful discoveries.  I can feel it.